I spoke today with a man whom I know for some time. We didn't see each other for 3 years and since I'm very rarely home and he has his own business even meeting today was more like a business meeting than anything else. We set up date and time weeks ahead so we would have time for each other.
We talked about our lives, about our work, and about things which made each of us happy. At least so I thought. I honestly thought that some activities in my life are more about passion and not duty. As we discussed our lives I came to realize that most of the things I do are becoming more tick off DONE than things I do with love and enjoyment. As I went back home I saw that this become a pattern in my life. I look at things which I love and mostly enjoy as on goal as on something I want to accomplish. So I can say IT'S DONE.
Recently I felt really tired and to me, it was being tired without reason. I worried a bit about it as I didn't know the cause. I was sick with worries that there must be something wrong with me. I even went to my doctor for complete check up. (Not exactly thing I would enjoy) She said there isn't anything wrong with my body. Her advice RELAX, ENJOY LIFE.
Today it started all make sense. In the last year, I became a slave of my own goals, of my own expectations. Everything became a duty and work instead of Joy. Done. Done. Done. Became my measure of happiness. But it was instant happiness just a few minutes and that's it. It wasn't that happy feeling which you can wrap around yourself when you feel lonely. The happiness which you carry in back of your mind and bring back everytime you feel down. Instant happiness can't make you feel that way.
President Gordon B. Hinckley said 'Life is to be enjoyed not just endured.' I love this. It's true but I forgot it. Now when I was reminded of it I want to change and start to more enjoy not any cost but REALLY ENJOY.
I want to trully enjoy and rejoice when I say THE WORK IS DONE.
